Jatuh

sakit! ouch~

Hidung saya dah mula lari-lari. T_T oh, cuaca~ Sikit lagi, dan cuba bertahan!

-nuna-

I’m okay

Honestly. Tak tipu. Depressed was yesterday episode. Sounds like a drama queen right? Perhaps, I am. Yes, yes, yes! Yesterday, I’m totally pressurized by a great loads and I’m broke.  It shattered all over the room.

You know, I can’t rely to others to calm me down. Yes, I can’t. I should climb the concrete wall by myself, following all the guides by the instructor and have a faith on the safety equipments. Because he just can watches me or to be specified, watching my ass from down there and gives the instructions. And I’m the one doing all the dirty works. Climbing here and there. Grabbing anything that my hands can reach. Yes, I’m not letting all the hard works going to waste. I’ll try my best climbing  the wall until the end. It is me, the one that should think how to overcome this problem. I mean my own problem, o/.

Okay. Put aside all the negative feeling. Put aside all the unfair judgment. Even though it might feels like a-duh-whatever! I need to move on. I need to think a way to escape from this desert. I need to find a good land, planting flowers. A land that has enough nutrients and water. So, that flowers of mine can blooming on the time.  Pretty enough to make others jealous. Yeah, you get it now? The idea.

Be independent. Don’t depend too much on others.

Now, I know what to do. I had my own to-do-list here. On that sheet of paper I wrote the plan. I wrote the strategies to counter on. But at this moment I want to release a bit. I mean the dense in my head. I must find a way to go out from this place. Perlu! Ohkay, bye dear peeps~ I’m going to somewhere, perhaps some places to relax this head a bit.

Later~

Oh,-so-random: kau hati, sangat degil oh! Dah tau sakit sila makan ubat yer. Jangan ingat semua orang mahu pampered kau manja-manja. Tak comel, ok kau mahu saya suap-suap ubat ala jet masuk dalam mulut. Oh, spoiled kau hati. Kau sila buka mulut dan cuba telan ubat tu. Bukan pahit sangat. Pahit-pahit pun, untuk kau juga, hati. Kau kan sakit. Duh, gilaa kau!!

-nuna-