Letting out the upset

Somehow, I totally don’t understand people. Seriously, not. To be specified, a friend. Or should I say stranger now? Never mind. But I totally upset on what he actually did to me. Yeah, he WAS a friend of mine. I don’t know the fact that he had a crush on me since form 1 (that time, budak-budak lagi kot… lol). Seriously, I don’t have any idea.. until last year, a friend of mine told me this story; yada, yada, yadaaa.. and what-so-ever. Thus, I decided just to keep that story and don’t want to react on it, since he already has one special someone which is also my FRIEND, plussssssssssss I don’t have feeling towards him at all. So, why should I care?

Even though at that time I’m still single, but I’m not the type that want to grab any men and have a lovey dovey thingy just for the sake of the loneliness. Nope, I’m not that kind of person. Love is something that can’t be forced. It is the master key that  opens the gates of happiness. And I valued that. Plus, I’m considering his girlfriend. You know, it’s not nice to steal other boyfriend or be bitchy on her. Karma, babes.. karma. Please, don’t.

So, I stick on my previous decision. Keep silence. Until one day, he himself wrote an e-mail to me and confessed his feeling towards me. Yet, same response from me; nothing replied. Because I’m afraid he might be hurt if he knows the truth and I don’t know how to handle this. So, silence is the best option I guess. Alhamdulillah, I thought that was a good way to avoid him and let him has a happy life with his current girlfriend. Sweet am I? LoL~ A month passed, and I found that both of them engaged; and I was like relieved-and-happy seeing them together. Yes, I’m happy for them. Honestly. And relieved because he letting me go.

And today.. after browsing facebook and searching for some friend, I realized something. You know what, he removed me as his friend. Pfffffffffffftttttttttttt!!! Okay, on positive side.. I know he is trying to forget me and want to continue his life. But, it’s not fair you know. I’m like a victim in this situation, and suddenly he put all the blame on me. deng! Yes, I can say that I don’t care if he removed me from his friend list; since i have another 800++ friends in the list. But!! You know, I valued each of my friend. All of them. Quite sakit hati. Tapi, dah orang tak nak kawan.. xpelah! Like I care, kan? (but, I do.. )

-nuna-