Courage

It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are

E E Cummings.

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice. At the end of the day saying,

“I will try again tomorrow”

Mary Anne Radmacher.

Ou, Allah. All this while, I may not being a good servant to You. But, only You I could ask for helps. Thus, for this time.. please grants me a courage. A courage to finish the thesis and may everything (the viva) goes well. Ameen..

-nuna-

Makeup

Eh, tak. Bukan nak cerita pasal saya makeup orang itu ini. Nak makeup diri sendiri pun belum tentu pass. Hik3 Actually, I have come to realize one important thing. Makeup stuffs.

Semalam lompat-lompat blog. Pergi sana sini. Baca itu dan ini. Luckily, I found something informative regarding makeup stuffs.  Selalunye, I would think that all makeup stuffs can last 3 years or more longer. But then, after reading from various sources, rupanya sangkaan I tu salah! For every type of makeup stuff like mascara, lipstick, blusher, etc., they got their own expiry date. Hurm, no wonder lah every time after applying makeup on my face, sometime I felt like there are rashes and itchy. Sebab most of barang barang makeup yang I have dah almost 2 years plus dah guna. Adeh, tsk!

Disebabkan itulah, dengan semangat yang berkobar kobar saya terjah Seberang Perai City. Even though pergi sorang sorang dan tak ada siapa teman, dengan gigihnya saya survey di semua makeup outlet kat situ. But, during surveying this and that, I’m entering Elianto outlet, one of my favorite brand. As usual, I’m asking the promoter this and that, regarding their makeup stuffs, discounts and all. But, you know what… seriously, I hate her attitude.  When I’m asking her, she was not concentrate on answering my questions at all and  at the same time, playing around with her colleague.  Ok, sangat geram. Patutnya, she should entertains all the question and suggesting products that suit me well. But, you know.. dia sangat busy bermain main dengan her colleague. Hey, I’m the customer here. Both of you guys should know the etiquette and learn how to deal with customers, ohkay! Seriously, sangat sangat menyampah. But, after all.. walaupun sangat menyampah dengan that salesgirl, I still bought some stuffs from there;  a lipstick and eyeliner. Of course lah, sebab ada sales kot! hehehe Kalau tak, jangan harap I nak beli dengan attitude salesgirl tu. For lipstick, I love the color and hey, the eyeliner seems easy to apply. Since previously, I found it’s quite difficult to use liquid eyeliner. Even though I have one, tapi bile applying on the eyes.. akan selalulah jadi macam tak best! sekejup sebelah tebal, sekejup senget senget. wahaha!

Source: Google

Then, I went to Watson. Sebab I ada Watson card, of courselah at here I bought quite a lot. Hehehe Dalam banyak banyak tu, saya paling suka dengan makeup remover from In2It. When you are applying it on your skin, the makeup was easily removed and your face didn’t feels any stickiness dan rasa soft. Best dan suka sangat!!^^ I heard that the blusher and eyeshadow from this brand (In2It) are also very nice and affordable! Yes, it is. I love the blusher color, sheer shimmer blush plum pearl. It gives a natural glow on your face and the color is really nice and not too bright. For eyeshadow, I bought one with 3 combination of colors; peach, orange-brown, and purple-plum. Since these three combination are easily match with all functions and dresses. Hehehe~ Saya bukanlah jenis yang selalu sangat pakai makeup. Thus, bila dah tau the lifetime of the cosmestic products can last around 1 and half year je.. so xdelah beria sangat nak beli untuk buat collection. Membazir je kan..~ (eceyhhh, dah pandai cakap pasal membazir! wahaha )

Lagiiiii… saya juga ada beli mascara! This one I bought from Maybelline. Since dulu dulu lagi I memang suka mascara from Maybelline. It can last longer on your lashes ans easily removed. Because last time I had bad experience using silky girl punye mascara. Bile you applied on your lashes, it will also stick on your eyes and sangatlah nampak comot! Kang tak sampai one hour pon, dah mata nampak cam vampire lak. Eeeeuw.. seram! And.. one last thing I bought was lip gloss from Za. I rase, memanglah lip gloss I tersangatlah banyak. Sebab dulu saya memang suka buat collection. Tapi, most of them dah lebih 2 years dah pon., Huuuuu~ So, I bought a new one. Za nye lip gloss nih quite okay jugaklah. Because I want the type yang not really bling bling. Cam rimas lak bila ada pearl-like/ bling bling bagai kat lip gloss tu kan. Fuhhhh~ kering jugak lah my purse semalam. Hihihi

Dalam banyak banyak tu, I paling suka makeup remover from In2It. Terbaiklah! Sukeeee~ hihi So, dah penat penat shopping, it is time to go back lah kan~ Before heading back to Nibong Tebal, I dropped by at Kapitan restaurant for a while. Around 10.30 p.m, jumpe the dearest one yang baru balik keje sambil sambil makan cheese nan + tandoori chicken! Walla~ (oh, kata tak mahu makan malam dan mahu diet bagai. Apa dah jadi niiiii? keh3 ) Lepak lepak, sedar tak sedar dah pukul 12! Alamakkkkk.. it’s late already and the journey to Nibong Tebal adalah dalam 1 hour jugak. While feeling sleepy I’m heading back to Nibong Tebal dan sesampai je di rumah, terus tidur lena sambil mimpi bahagia! Heeee~

Oh, here I want to share the information regarding makeup stuffs and their lifetime:

Foundation (alas bedak)
Cream foundation: 1 1/2 years
Liquid foundation (oil free): 1 year
Concealer :1 years

Powder dan blush
Cream to powder: 1 year
Powder: sehingga 2 years
blush: sehingga 2 years
cream blush: 1 year

Eye make-up atau eye shadow
Cream eye shadows: 1 year
Powder eye shadows: up until 2 years
Eye liner (pencil): 1 year
Eye liner (liquid): 3-6 months
Mascara: 1-3 months

lipstik or lip gloss
Lip liner: 1 year
Lipstick: up until 2 years
Lip gloss: 1 1/2 years

By the way, no need to follow exactly as written. As long as your stuffs are still in good conditions and bila pakai didn’t felt any rashes and all, I think you still can use it. Just for mascara, you need to be careful a bit. Paling-paling guna adalah dalam 4 months! OMG..mine already 2 years! wahahah~ Nasib baik all my lashes are still okay and tak gugur! Ohkay, after this I think I need to be more careful on this matter. Chill~~!!! ^^

-nuna-

Grateful. I am.

Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Ilahi.

Tika dan saat ini, itu yang saya rasa. Bila diri dihargai walau sedikit, ternyata mampu menyuntik semangat yang kira-kira hampir tersungkur dek tekanan. Menulis thesis itu susah. Baru saya rasa.  Apatah lagi kalau menulis thesis sambil membuat satu atau dua kerja lain pada waktu yang sama. Pengsan!

Mulanya, saya fikir keputusan sebelum ini seperti agak drastik. Atau mungkin juga salah. Bila bertubi-tubi force dan pressure diletakkan di atas bahu saya. Hampir mengalah saya waktu itu. Mujur tidak.

Tapi, saya kira itu semua adalah cabaran yang perlu saya tempuh dan hadapi dengan cool. Ya, cool. Mungkin juga ini rezeki saya yang hampir menuju ke arah itu. Ya, orang selalu cakap begitu.

Apa-apa pun, saya masih lagi bersyukur. Sungguh, saya perlu ada tekad yang perlu direalisasikan. Selesaikan semua-semua bebanan. Yosh!!

-nuna-

takut

Betul. Saya rasa itu sekarang. Masa begitu mencemburui saya. Tidak banyak yang masih bersisa untuk saya lengkapkan semua perancangan. Dalam minda saya kini berlegar kata-kata ‘it’s killing me’. Entah apa dan siapa saya tidak tahu. Cuma apa yang pasti, saya akan habis atau melankoliknya mati jika apa yang dirancang tidak menjadi. Oh, ini memang crap!

Tidak pernah putus saya berdoa agar senantiasa dipermudahkan segala urusan saya. Saya amat perlu itu. Paling tidak pun, sekarang.

Pernah saya menyalahkan diri, memilih path yang sebegini rupa. Itu mungkin konklusi di atas dasar emosi. Jelas benar saya dengan perihal yang satu itu. Namun jauh di sudut hati saya, saya betul-betul mahukan ini. Mahu decision begini. Perit untuk ditempuh. Tapi saya berpegang teguh dengan kepercayaan berakit-rakit ke hulu. Insyaallah~ Saya akan bersenang di kemudian hari.

Ameen.

-nuna-

Depressed [recover version]

Okeh, saya mengaku saya rasa ego saya tinggi gila. Kalau perasan, semalam atau kelmarin saya ada buat satu entri ‘depressed’. Sebab tak nak tunjuk dekat orang saya ni di dalam kondisi di bawah tekanan sejuta paranormal, saya buang entri tersebut. Jadi, biar orang fikir saya normal. Happy konon-kononnya. Tapi, kesannya saya rasa macam dah nak meletup bagai. Saya rasa tak reti sangat-sangat macam mana nk komunikasi dengan orang. Macam manusia normal lain berkomunikasi. Saya rasa saya sangat keras. Kaku. Dingin.

Shit happened. Mat-mat saleh selalu cakap macam tu. Yes, it it. Saya tak boleh predict semua-semua plan saya senang-senang nak success, smooth macam tu. Tak boleh!! You see, now?? Deng!

I hate to admit it. Saya benci kondisi saya sekarang ini. Cukup. I’m capable of doing nothing. pffft!! Seriously, I’m not in a good condition. Sekarang adalah sangat-sangat low self-esteem. *big sigh*

You know, I suck a lot and stuck in a middle of the journey. I don’t know, what this little head was thinking. It’s not synchronized with my own desires and plans. Whenever I started typing this and that.. both of my hand stopped. Mrs. mind asked them to stop working. Because there is no idea coming out.  Totally, zero. A big ’0′. Seriously, I felt like crying.. and I did. A few time, alone in the office.

But, I said; wake up!! You guys have no time to play around. We should make it by the due. And I know, they were not playing around. They tried their best. Perhaps by  deactivated my facebook account will help to increase the productivity and there is an outcome. But, I still got no idea to write on the chapters. pffftttttttttttt!! What’s wrong with this little brain?? T_T

Hey little brain, I still remember how you guys enjoying those technical thingies, the formulas, the parameters and all. Now, where all the interest gone? You guys should find one. I mean the courage to write the chapters with fun. Not like this. Crying all along. Duh!!!

Helpppp!!!! Onegaiiiii~ T_T

-nuna-